Life knows Nothing but Balance

 Heyy..... These days have been quite awesome for me. lolx! But, life knows nothing but balance, so that is quite a number of bad stuffs? lolx! But i'm trying to stay positive. Don't wanna ruin my mood for the VIP of these days. Long post. Only chose the topic you wanna read~ lolx

HEY THERE. LONG TIME NO SEE
yeaa, 2 of my old classmates from secondary school are back in singapore! hahaha! Actually those 2 were a couple when we were in sec school last year. So after O levels, they went to University of New South Wales @ Sydney together to further their study. Awesome story ehh? But Nooo... Should talk about that later. Picked them up @ the airport on saturday.

from Left: Joe, Alleyene, Jessica, FAUZI, Lin Han

Missed them alott luhh! Accompanied the Guy named Joe back to his hostel. hahaha! He is damn funny luhh. Missed his jokes to the core. His first 2 hours in Singapore and he was crazy like hell with his hilarious jokes and all. After he put his stuffs down at the hostel, Lin Han, Joe and Me went to our usual place; Plaza sing to eat our favorite food place and play pool. lolx! Missed those old days. @ there also where I hear the full story about the couple, Joe and Jessica. They have broken up but still keeps a good relation. But here's what happen

WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU JESSICA
You used to be one of the best friends to hang out with. But I still have to say all these uhh. You used to wear the longest skirt in school uniform. You are usually respected being one of the most innocent and feminine girls in class. Maybe its bcoz of the good nature of our old class, but I seriously didn't know that you were so EASILY INFLUENCED..! You used to be different. You were SOO caring, feminine, conservative, "not-wild", sensitive and thoughtful. And most importantly, she seems so innocent. Now you are the direct opposite of everything! haizz. I mean seriously, Joe loved you for all those reasons. Not for what you are now! Even after the break up, you should feel lucky that Joe haven't given up hope on you~

Haizz. Don't wanna talk about this anymore luhh. Spoil my mood only. Not that I'm involved or what, its just that its a very sad case that this happen when they were like the most awesome'est couple in the school. Plus when they left together for Sydney, everyone thought that it was Happily ever After for them both.

SUNDAY was BALANCED?
It started out with a good mood. Felt good meeting my old group of runners for the Swissotel Vertical Marathon. And dear God, My juniors have grown tall. lolx! However the run wasn't very good. Knew quite well that I didn't do very well compared to the previous Vertical Marathon. Was very disappointed not to see my name in the top10 listings. Still, I'm not gonna give excuse for my horrible performance or what. Its my fault. I have become a horrible runner.
Found out I placed at a horrible 22nd place for the run. Haizz.

After a horrible morning, luckily I had an awesome afternoon! Had a class reunion lunch *somewhere*. hahaha! Felt kinda nostalgic with many of my old classmates and teachers. Sat at the restaurant for like 3 hours talking? lolx! Had fun~!

WHAT KIND OF PERSON AM I TO YOU? (not directed to you)
Seriously dude..... all this while I thought I meant something to where you are now. You stood there beside me and I stood beside yours all these years. And to think that you just left without saying a word and all these things happening to you and couldnt even let me be there? Call me selfish for wanting your attention. But call yourself a fucked up selfish friend for having everyone else except me on one of your most important day of your life. I dunno how much i meant to you. But you definitely mean alot to me. And I bet you know that because you have changed my life so much! And I thought that in one way or another I too have an impact on your life. But seriously................ haizz.
Call me sensitive over such an issue, yes I admit it. I am quite sensitive for a guy. And friends means alot to me even though I don't express feelings. But that doesnt mean I don't have fucking feelings. Screw you dumbass

Life is like a game. And you only got 1 live

These Dayss...

 Like always, these days kinda suckk~! I really thought i have cleared one project when I hand it in. But the frickking lecturer gave some comments and end up I must do SOME   ALOT of editing then pass up on Thrusday.. Dumb. Take a look at my project

some finishing touch ups at the library

 Alright you may think my drawing sucks or what uhh.. But for someone with such a limited creativity like me to do such a thing is a wonder already. Seriously! I took COUNTLESS HOURS to get this done. And I have to do more? Damn! That's why I hate art! Im not the artistic kinda guy. Everything in my head is maths! Nothing else! Thats why I took an engineering course! And Didn't know that an irrelevant and compulsory module like this shit must be taken for engineers. Seriously I think it will make us more stupid. Dip-Shit~!

Take Care and Goodbye friend!
 Okay, aside from that, on Friday, 2 of my friends are flying back to their hometown. Had to see them at the airport.... Hmmm =( Sad case ehh. Actually only took 1 pic with only one of my friend who was going back.

taken at the airport

  Hahaha! This is Zhang JiaLi. My ex-classmate from China. Well, she's going back there for quite some time and will definitely miss her. Me and her go all the way back since secondary 1. We were in the same class for 3 years. hahaha! She used to be a very quiet and nerdy looking girl whose VERY good in her maths. hahaha! However, still being very quiet, but when she is not in school uniform and with her hair down, she looks like a slamming HOTTIE! hahaha! She's a good friend. Gave me countless foolscap papers and helped me alot in maths. hahaha! Hope you'll remember me! lolx!

MY FRIENDS AND I
  Alright, after meeting a few of my classmates on friday, kinda realize I miss every single one of them these days. Furthermore, at least half of all of them are foreigners thus at least a quarter of my friends have left Singapore to study somewhere else. I miss everyone of them. They used to give me so much joy in class. Although we go through bad times, the good times we had was..........Amazing. I seriously don't know what my life would be like if you people are not inside it. PLUS! I miss playing basketball with all my friends!! Urghhhh!! I've never get to play bball for AGES already! Ever since I entered poly, the majority of my friends are malay. Therefore bball ain't in their blood. But its in MINE! And i'm craving to play it so BADLY!

  I dunno if its just me or it is human instinct. But I can never learn to appreciate things/people when they are still around. But deep down I know that if they were to leave my life one day, I'll miss them alot. But for now, I dunno how to appreciate. Maybe its because of the regularity of seeing those things/people around everyday therefore I can't learn how to appreciate them. I dunno what i'm talking about and i dunno why i'm saying all this luhh. But missing my friends (AND BBALL!) badly kinda got me thinking.......


RUN RUN RUN
  Okayy..... Lastly i'm gonna talk about is my running these days. A running teacher/friend once told me "I see a passion for running in you. And I know you'll do it for life". That came from Mr David Ho when he was comforting me while I was crying away about an important race that I threw bcoz of some stupid matters. However the running "fire" in me seems to be disappearing. It seems like I lost my attitude to excel to be a better runner. Haizz. How I wish you're here to guide me. Still, despite all odds, I want to do well in the marathon. The numbers are counting down to 190+ more days. And I'm gonna have to start my own training after losing my lunatic and sadistic coach. Hope to see David Ho there at the race.

In Pursuit of Perfection, One will Flaw even More

Been Thinking alott...

 Damnit luhh.. Can't get someone outta my head. lolx! She's not just a normal hot girl you see on the street you know. I see her almost everyday inside the same bus. Stuck inside the bus in the traffic jam and all. I see her EVERYTIME. That's why i don't take MRT. hehehe. But she's different luhh. One thing for sure I know she is schooling at a school nearby SP, won't tell where~ Quite sure she's a sports fan but however she still looks sooo lady-like. hahaha! And quite sure she smiled at me once. Hahahaha! And she carries a NBA team basketball bag which in fact a team that I don't like. hahaha! But the most amazing thing, I guess. hahaha! She is using the same Sennhiser headphone as me! hahaha! I thought those sound quality type of headphone will only appeal to boys and hardcore music fans. Hahaha! Didn't expect a girl like her to use it.

  I won't say she's hot uhh. But she's definitely cute'ly pretty? hahaha! Probably one day i'll get to know her? =) hope and wish so. But I really wanna like get the ball rolling and maybe start talking to her? lolx! Not that Im crazy or what here. But hear me out this once.  Just now on the way home from school's gym being all tired, I fell asleep inside the bus. At my usual place, right at the back of the bus. Then I somehow woke up half way through home when I saw a bright yellow t-shirt with long haired girl sitting beside me. (didn't had headphones on!!) I Didn't know it was her until I fell asleep again and woke up again when I realized she have been sitting beside me all along.!! I gave quite a loud "Woah!" bcoz i was REALLY surprise plus because right at the back seat wasn't her usual SEAT!! But by the time she already had her headphones on.  Wasted. Could have at least started a conversation if she would have heard that..... She lives quite nearby my house =) Nvrm luhh, hope to see her again tomorrow in the bus? =)

ps. My heart raced to a million beats a minute when I found out it was her. That's why I can't get her out of my head.

Picture capture moments in Time.

  Heyy. These days got a lot of photography competition going on and so the photographer in me kinda got caught up. Haha! To me pictures is a really special thing. Like I quoted "picture capture moments in time". And someone who have horrible memory like me, pictures can help me remember those special moment at that particular time uhh.
 Let me take you on a journey through my time with pictures. Lolx! I used to stupidly think that good pictures = awesomely expensive cameras. Well i won't say its completely wrong because the quality of picture will be there lahh. For example some of my photos from a Canon 40D with various lenses.

MacRitchie Reservoir

a golden hour

beaches

the brilliant Kinabalu

city hall..!

 and so..... to a certain degree, I was wrong. Because you dont really need a good camera to capture a really good picture. So what do we actually need? Well, there are some rules in photography that you can learn to take really good pictures. Like rules of third, fibonacci rule and a lot more rules to take nice pictures. Here's one example of rules of third.

im not saying the pic is nice or what =P but it does follow the rules of thirds

However. There's one picture I've seen that defies any rule in photography. Plus it was taken by a cheapo "point-and-shoot" camera! Taken by a Panasonic DMC FX2. Google it to see how cheapo it is. Hahahaha! Okay, credits go to my sister for taking such a brilliant picture.

 So in the end. There's many ways you can follow to become a brilliant photographer. Or you can invest in alot of money in a camera. Or maybe its just your luck being at the right place and at the right time? However, of all the things about photography..... there's the brilliant saying that goes

"It is difficult to capture a beautiful object or scene in a photograph unless that beauty already existed in the soul of the photographer"

Yupp! thats photography to me.... =)




okayy, now back to reality....... life ain't so well these days. The first digit on my countdown to the time of my life is soon dropping from a 2 to a 1... And still i'm not doing so well in my training. Haizzz. What to do?...... Whatever luhhh. I'm gonna push hard. Gonna Do or Die. I don't wanna to end up finishing the race all with regrets. Even if i failed to reach my target, I wanna know that I did my best and i gave myself an honest shot; no regrets. Plus I believe deeply in ALL or Nothing. So here I go..

go ME! less then 200 days to go!

NOTHING! Nothing in life that's worth having comes easy..

What Color Are you?

 Recently stumbled upon a color analysis in a communication skill presentation. A very interesting topic it talked about whereby how color defines who you are and what can color do to you..! Let me share a bit about this cool topic. Its not 100% true plus it only states the good part of it. No bad part. hahaha!

  RED  (me!)
Symbolizes: Fire, anger, courage, self confidence, security, positive love and will power.
People who likes the color red are usually Dynamic and direct but also generous. Strong in character and also love to be competitive. Knowing what you want and usually win. Posses strength, courage and conviction of your rights as well as wanting equal justice for all.
It is said that red energy stimulates arterial blood and brings warmth to cool extremities.

  BLUE 
Symbolizes: calmness, peace, beauty, gentleness, honesty, loyalty and commitment.
People who likes the color blue are usually creative, artistic and imaginative. Aside from being practical, you are also trustworthy, reliable and honest. People tend to feel comfortable in your presence as you project non-threatening, serene and secure energy.
Blue helps to reduce pain and physical stress as it brings great relaxation.

  YELLOW 
Symbolizes: joy, warmth, radiant energy, logic, humor and efficiency
People who likes the color yellow are usually bright, expressive and give warmth to many. At times you're either happy or funny. When you listen, many sees you as a great counselor as you are sought for your talent to advise. You are the life of the party, the best friend of man and the voice of the country.
Yellow is known to give clarity to thoughts and have an effect on nervous system.

 ORANGE 
Symbolizes: precision, unmatched organization capabilities, vitality and endurance.
People who likes orange are usually a focused person. You tend to give purpose to all who know you. Always being very thoughtful and sincere. Orange people tends to be very conscious of design, form and structure. Being precise, you'll get easily tick off by the slightest inaccuracy.

  PURPLE 
Symbolizes: magic, mystery, judgment and royalty
People who likes purple usually have spiritual conscious and good awareness. You tend to be interested in anything out of the ordinary. You also have true dignity and nobility inside yourself. In addition, you tend to feel compelled to express yourself esthetically and artistically.

 GREEN  
Symbolizes: Nature, fertility, life, self-respect, well-being, learning and harmony.
People who likes green usually have good perception and awareness about most things. You do not appreciate sudden surprise and are a stable person. Enjoy details and can usually see clearly into any situation. Also, you tend to be very money-minded. 




Hahaha! That's all the presentation is about. lolx! Okay these days kinda suck for me. I thought that not thinking and talking about it will be better, but what the hell. Gonna say things out here.
I think its my prolonged exposure to competitive field, but last few months whereby i'm not a part of any competitive activities, i became less.........of being myself? I'm usually filled with a lot of confidence and always being competitive at anything I do. But these days have been different. I have been doing things all not very well. I feel weaker and unable to reach my usual goals. Its not that I regret leaving the competitive field for a hobby club or what. But I didn't know that it will change me so much. Not that i'm boasting or what, but I used to be a star at all my games. Regardless waterpolo or running, I used to get good and nice praises by officials, my supporters and people who knew me. But these days........... I feel like i'm nothing.
I used to look upon that role model and superstar of mine as always said : "i'll be there someday too". But I think those dreams is slowly fading. Now its just became another one of my imagination. Maybe I had too much impossible dreams and now all i'm left with is disappointment. Haizz, whatever luhh. FML



F.U.B.A.R
-fucked up beyond all recognition