I just realize things about life these days. Social cases these days makes people HAVE TO BE in good terms with each other regardless of if you like them or not. Regardless if they are your first choices of friends or not. This is because, if people whom will see each other on a regular basis (eg. classmates) are not in good terms with another, it will cause........awkward moments? Not something that people wanna go through ehhs? So people these days can't really chose the friends they want. Instead they are stuck with people whom are........also stuck with them?
Of course, you can't expect to have the best of both worlds. You can't usually chose friends that you wanna get stuck with. And this kinda suck. I'm used to the idea whereby i am in control of my own destiny ehhhs. But realising bullshits in my life lately............ Makes me think........ life is unfair for self-destructing people like me....
Emotional..? Yea, that's me
Its nothing wrong being emotional. I don't see it as a weakness. In fact, embracing it makes me feels.......stronger? Yea, many of times I become tooooo emotionally involved, regardless caring for someone too much or hating someone to the max. But whats wrong with caring for someone too much? What's wrong with going that extra mile for someone, anyone........just so that you wanna see them smile? What's wrong with believing in something deep down so much, that when things fall apart, all I can do is cry? And crying is not a gender disorder. Its a natural human reaction. And yeaaa, I do cry. For many reasons.
And I hope its true. That things must fall apart, so to make way for something better!
oohhhh my. Fuck me
Love is always a gamble, but waiting won't change the dice. Either you roll them now or you lose your turn - Jasper Ang
